Geez. Thanks for dropping the 100% Vocab Test OFF THE GRADE SHEET! Now I have a B. WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At least I have A's everywhere else... for now...
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Against Your Will
Another AP English assignment... not good. Jackson's made us write two of these things in three days. Definitely not boding well.
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I’m sure I can come up with something. It just might take a few days… OK! How about my goshdarned brain? SOMEBODY has a thing with trying to make me MORE than I really am. EVERYDAY they want me to run, study, practice, blah blah dee blah. Only they do it in a very pestering, aggravating manner! I DON’T CARE if my SAT essay never gets higher than 8! I’m not planning my whole life based on my SAT Writing scores! This same person focuses on my faults and flaws, and they seem to NEVER notice when I do something well. So, what about me has this person tried to change? My habits: the way I do my homework, the way I handle stress, the way I spend my little free time. They have changed my friends (although that seems to have worked out alright), my clothes (but I hate clothes shopping anyway), and my schedule (why must I wake up so dreadfully early on weekends? I’m up before six a.m. five days a week!) I have had to fight tooth and nail to continue my moments when I am allowed to read books NOT required for school. I have to explain everything I do, and HOW it’s actually homework, and if I’m done, my nose gets shoved in a giant SAT review book. And that doesn’t smell too nice.
I find that people who try to change what I like and/or do do not know me very well, even though they are trying to change me. They see someone who is not the ideal student, not the world’s fastest and most in-shape athlete, not the friendliest girl on the block. And I know I’m not those things either. Just try not to rub it in, if you please. I’m not going to get much better than this until I GO somewhere new, surrounded by new people, new environments, new opportunities. So until then, live with the way I am. XP
Monday, September 24, 2007
How Am I Doing?
From an assignment in AP English...
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I’m probably doing a lot better in AP English right now than I currently think I am. In fact, the only reason my brain thinks I’m doing poorly is because it puts so much emphasis on the scores, especially the scores of my essays, which are dismal. I didn’t have time to do the meta-essay to bring my Othello essay’s score up (from twenty out of fifty). However, I have been doing fairly well on reading quizzes, NOT the articles, but the actual reading reading. The novel reading. There we go. Seriously though, if we do anymore writing write more often in this class than we do now, my grade’s gonna go down down down. Whee. Like that. I feel like I understand the way the reading is tested: names, places, quotes, the little eensie-weensie teeny-tiny stuffs. But I really do fear for my writing. I’m horrible at analyzing literature, following themes, and identifying the meaning of symbols. I can’t even find the symbols unless they’re blatantly obvious like Hester Prynne’s A in Hawthorne's The Scarlet Letter. I mean, really now, of course the A is important. It’s the title of the book! GAH!
Umm… back on track now… after some Cheez-Its…
Top it off, once I find something that could be a symbol, I never seem to understand its meaning. How was I supposed to know that Bentley Drummle was a symbol of everything that is anti-Pip? Sure, Drummle got the girl and he and Pip never got along, but that doesn’t mean he is there to show Pip everything he shouldn’t do, right? Or am I still wrong? Instances like that cause my mind to ‘splode, and therefore I need to work on my English skills. ‘Sploding brains are NOT something one wants in a classroom. Quite the opposite would be preferred: absorbing information instead of regurgitating it on the walls in a ‘splosion of grey matter. So, I am still not very sure as to “how I’m doing” in the class. Come back later when I’ve got my grade report in the mail.
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I’m probably doing a lot better in AP English right now than I currently think I am. In fact, the only reason my brain thinks I’m doing poorly is because it puts so much emphasis on the scores, especially the scores of my essays, which are dismal. I didn’t have time to do the meta-essay to bring my Othello essay’s score up (from twenty out of fifty). However, I have been doing fairly well on reading quizzes, NOT the articles, but the actual reading reading. The novel reading. There we go. Seriously though, if we do anymore writing write more often in this class than we do now, my grade’s gonna go down down down. Whee. Like that. I feel like I understand the way the reading is tested: names, places, quotes, the little eensie-weensie teeny-tiny stuffs. But I really do fear for my writing. I’m horrible at analyzing literature, following themes, and identifying the meaning of symbols. I can’t even find the symbols unless they’re blatantly obvious like Hester Prynne’s A in Hawthorne's The Scarlet Letter. I mean, really now, of course the A is important. It’s the title of the book! GAH!
Umm… back on track now… after some Cheez-Its…
Top it off, once I find something that could be a symbol, I never seem to understand its meaning. How was I supposed to know that Bentley Drummle was a symbol of everything that is anti-Pip? Sure, Drummle got the girl and he and Pip never got along, but that doesn’t mean he is there to show Pip everything he shouldn’t do, right? Or am I still wrong? Instances like that cause my mind to ‘splode, and therefore I need to work on my English skills. ‘Sploding brains are NOT something one wants in a classroom. Quite the opposite would be preferred: absorbing information instead of regurgitating it on the walls in a ‘splosion of grey matter. So, I am still not very sure as to “how I’m doing” in the class. Come back later when I’ve got my grade report in the mail.
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